Mistaken Thought

"I thought I was right but I never saw it coming."

The last time I checked, I was too drunk that I thought I have started to like him. So I just shrugged and shove it off. I even thought I liked this other guy I've met. But then I realized the longer I was breathing, the more I got to know how I was feeling.

It wasn't until we went back to school. I was back to my ordinary day and almost a month has passed since I saw my classmates since we celebrated Christmas and New Year in the province. I was excited to see them and bored at the same time. I hated the daily routines. They make me get so tired of life. Then I never noticed anything new when suddenly...

I saw him again. Of course I'll be seeing him, he's my blockmate! At first I didn't know what to say. Not that we were close and it was an obligation to speak to him. But he was talking to me and as usual making jokes. I didn't know what went wrong but I certainly was uneasy. It was like I was thinking up of phrases just for the conversation to keep going. I felt really different.

So my weekend continues until on the second week, I was having strange feelings. It's like I've never felt before. I was more uncomfortable. I was conscious, very uneasy and somehow I can't stop myself from looking at the mirror. The day continues until it was the last subject. Then somehow I couldn't look behind me since he was sitting there. I couldn't even look at him but thank God I could still answer and speak up without biting my tongue whenever he strikes a conversation with me.

Somehow I act like a freaking paranoid that I can't stop myself from smiling whenever he's there and that I act scared when he notices something. But at least I can say he still has no clue since he isn't avoiding me. Or does he know something but is just ignoring it and acts like he doesn't know a thing?