Thinking Statue

Here I go again. Letting myself go deeper and further that somehow I end up depressed and frustrated.
I keep thinking and thinking and continues to think even though I'm not looking for answers.
It's not just thinking that I've been doing. I've been, well, daydreaming! And the worst part is, that freaking guy keeps popping in my head! Grr, gusto ko siyang pigain! Hindi ko nga gusto ugali nun eh. Though I admit mabait siya sa personal but still he's full of himself. How come I'm feeling the opposite?! I hate it! Hindi pa naman kami close! You know, he's like a stranger who pisses you off yet you are still attracted to him! Well, I'm attracted to him and I hate it but as I said, I feel the opposite! Meaning, the opposite of HATE! Well, not love. It would be too sudden. Admiration? I don't know and I wish I could just cut my head off -_-. Oh and for the record, I keep checking my cell phone even if I know his message wouldn't be for me. SO...what does that mean?