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Feb 2, 2010

"Sometimes I wished I was a boy..."

I keep thinking I need to be patient but they said "Move faster". How should I move? I mean, being a girl and the fact that we were never close from the start. It also saddened me. I have a little tinge in my heart that I was once again reaching for something out of my league. I knew it from the very start, they were just false hopes. I've never been so pessimistic but the matter is different. If I stay optimistic in this situation, I would either be grateful or more hurt. I'm just scared because I'm a very emotional person and it would affect me greatly.

This feeling has changed me so much, inspiring me and allowing me to do things I've never done before. But I believe it's all going to change...again.

The moment, the time, the second I felt something so sure; the thought that finally I was given a chance now seemed like a star, slowly its light being extinguished by the hint of doubt and a tint of rejection. Sometimes I would think that I was never meant to feel in such a way, that I will always be cupid for others but never for myself.

I hate myself so much for falling courageously even though it was evident that the walls between us were too thick. I hate myself for letting the same things happen to me all the time. I hate myself for the very reason that in the 19 years of my life, the feeling of brokenheartedness will never cease which is why until now I have my feet stuck on the ground and I will never feel what it's like to soar.

Gripping The Phone

Jan 30, 2010

 

 

My classmates and I exchanged messages in Facebook. I read a status of my classmate. She seemed to be troubled. I commented telling her that, "Prayers can move mountains".

I remembered she was with the others the night they went out. So I asked if I had to know anything. She said she had something to say about me. I told her it can wait and that I needed to concentrate since exams are just next week.

Tomorrow came and I just couldn't wait any longer. I asked her what the news was about. This was what she said:

"Sabi niya alam na raw niya na gusto mo siya. Ok lang naman daw maging close kayo".

I couldn't stop smiling. She encouraged me to text him so I did what she said. I was afraid that he wouldn't reply. But I was wrong. Minutes later, I received a message from him. I was so happy I was starting to look childish but I couldn't help it. So we texted each other for a while.

I was so inspired and happy that day I was able to bring NCM and COPAR down! I wish this inspiration will keep me motivated and hope that it lasts :)

It's a good impulse for the coming board exams :P 

 

Circle Fun

Jan 30, 2010

 

 

So nagjogging ulit ako sa Circle. Ang yabang ko, feeling ko alam na alam ko na yung Philcoa. Wala akong dalang gamit. Puro barya at towel lang at nakakainis kasi di ko dinala phone ko at di ko nasuot relo ko.

 

In fairness, improving ako. Mas nakakatagal na akong magjog at nakatatlo o apat na ikot ako pero syempre jog-lakad ginagawa ko. Nakita ko rin ulit si Megan at ang owner niya. Gwapong aso talaga ng SIberian Husky.

Then bumili ako ng juice tapos jog ng konti then umupo ako sa bench. Badtrip di ko dala phone ko so soundtrip lang nagawa ko. Then may dumating na pogi na nakashades at umupo sa may tapat. Kumakain siya then humarap sakin at dahil nakashades siya malay ko ba kung nakatingin. Umalis na ako kasi gusto ko sanang masolo yung lugar eh nakakaweird kasi yung kuya so nagjog na ulit ako. May naalala akong place na masarap apak-apakan kaya tumigil ako dun. Aba pagtalikod ko andun din si kuya nakasunod pala sakin haha. Nakakatawa talaga.

 

Gusto ko sanang magsama kaso I like to go at my own pace at dahil wala akong definite time. Then pumunta na ako ng TechnoHub at kumain dahil hinihintay ko magopen yung TimeZone. Malas nga lang kasi 12PM pa sila nagbubukas at pagtingin ko sa clock 10AM pa lang so I decided to go home at naligo then natulog na lang.

Hopeless Opportunity

Jan 29, 2010

May get together ulit kami ng mga brothers and sisters ko (my classmates) this evening. I'm looking forward to it kasi makakasama ko sila and syempre he'll also be there. Nagjogging ako nung umaga then I slept when I got home. Nobody was texting me so hindi muna ako nagpaalam kay Mama kasi hindi ko pa alam kung saan.

Unfortunately when I woke up my Mom was talking to my Dad and she definitely was in a bad mood. So nag-isip ako ng ways para makachempo ako kaso the plan failed. Kami pala ni Kuya ang topic nila haha. So nagtext ako kay Pamei na hindi ako makakasama. Pero I think it was a good thing wala ako. Nag-aral na lang ako ng NCM at nagblog :) Oh diba, time well spent.

Sabi ni H may balita raw ako kaso saglit lang ako pwedeng gumamit ng laptop kaya sabi ko ipagpaliban na lang sa ibang araw haha. Hindi naman ako nagmamadali at saka need ko rin magconcentrate kaya ayaw ko munang alamin.

Sign Or Just A Feeling?

 Jan 24, 2010

"Before I realized how I truly felt..."

...I had this other feeling. A liking for a guy. I really wanted to meet him again so my friends set up another get together. But then 2 days before that, I didn't want to go. Somehow for the first time in my life, I felt contented. I was able to decide without ever having to regret it. I still went of course since I have already said yes. But only as friends.

I knew what my heart was actually telling me and somehow I found something worth challenging. This time it was my turn. What I've wanted without looking for it just came to me.

I never even got to thank God. But I'll be doing it later before I sleep.

At the start of my new year, I have found a worthy opponent. This time I'll be the one working hard. 

Around In Circle

Jan 28, 2010

So ewan ko kung ano pumasok sa isip ko at naisipan kong magjogging mag-isa sa Circle haha. Pero ang sarap ng feeling. Malamig, ang ganda ng view tapos ang dami kong nakikita at dahil it was my first time to jog. Oh diba and ewan ko pero for once in my life I found a place where I would love to come back to always :)

Grabi napansin ko ang weak ko pala. Daig pa ako ng matatanda sa jogging! Saglit lang ako tumatakbo pagod na ako! After a lot of jogging and walking I decided to have some ice cream to cool myself. Then I bought those tiny oranges on the way and I decided to stop at one place. I've never done it before so I decided to do it. I turned on my player and danced. Good news, I forgot the dance steps I created before and another good news, I created only 4 steps and I wasn't able to finish the song.

In the afternoon, I went to the City Hall and met with Rose. We lined up for the cedula and we went to PRC to buy reviewers and lastly to TechnoHub and I was really happy because they set up new games.

I definitely will go back tomorrow!

The Ice Cream Story

"Life is like an ice-cream cone, you have to lick it one day at a time."

Since bihira lang ako sumama sa lakad ng H naisipan kong kaladkarin si Rose at maki ice cream na rin sa mga kaklase namin.

Naglakad kami at dun na rin nila nalaman ang secret ko. Syempre habang naglalakad kami may song sina Pamei for me. "So Close Yet So Far Away" Whaaat??? And narelieve ako kasi hindi siya kasama kaso I had to swallow my thoughts kasi andun pala siya sa likod at kumakanta pa sila ng kantang yun!

So syempre happy ako though mukang ewan ang liit na bagay natutuwa ako. Kaso sumabay lang pala siya papuntang Ice Cream Store pero buti na lang din at least nakapagbukingan kami after.

Kung ano man napagusapan namin samen na lang yun hahaha.

Then ang saya-saya dahil nakaclose ko mga taong hindi ko nakakausap hahaha. Family na talaga kami

 

I LOVE SECTION H!

CHILDISH!!!

Jan 27, 2010

  So yes it's Wednesday and I was actually ready to concentrate and take down notes. Then here comes the reviewer and there goes the title on the screen. Fluids and electrolytes. Yuck I hate it. I never did good in that particular topic. I was really trying hard to concentrate and even though he told us he'd give us handouts I still took down notes. 

 

Oh right our section got separated so it was such a total relief! Though I had to admit hindi ko nagustuhan because we were being evaluated and I didn't like what the others were doing during the discussion. Biruin mo ba naman nagdidiscuss si Sir tapos naka IPOD?! Respect please.

And hindi dun nagtapos araw ko. Magkahiwalay kami ng room and it's a good thing because I was too embarrassed and I get all itchy around him. Since two of my friends were there I visited them while staying out of his sight. Pero syempre ang lakas mangasar ng mga kaklase ko. Then ayun nung 3rd break namin hindi ako makalabas because he was standing there at gusto kong puntahan sina Hannah kaso nga andun siya sa may pinto at si John kinuha phone ko binigay sa kanya so syempre nagalala ako kasi feeling ko naiirita na siya at nakakaturn off na ata sa kanya yung nangyayari. Buti na lang binalik ni Yum phone ko!

Pagkauwi ko nainis ako sa sarili ko. Narealize ko muka talaga akong tanga at childish! 

The Hint Leaks (My Point Of View)

Jan 25, 2010

 

"I thank God kasi somehow nafeel ko nag-iba na talaga ako"

I can say that I have truly matured. Actually hindi ko nga alam eh. I was thinking if I ever saw a sign? Pero pano ko malalaman na yun na nga yung sign na hiningi ko kay LORD?

I knew I had a crush on him. Usually I would act childish. Yung tipong hindi makaconcentrate tapos gabi-gabi siya iniisip ko. I was like that when I was in high school. Pero ngayon hindi. I did my responsibilities without being distracted. He didn't pop in my head all the time. Minsan lang. I had the concentration and most of all I was inspired. I used him as a tool to perform better in school and somehow I was doing things na laging hindi natutuloy kasi uber tamad ako.

Sa Juris, sinulat ko lahat ng dapat aralin. Pinaghusayan ko talaga at naghanda na ako ng mga examples. Talagang nagtagal ako sa pagreview though hindi ko natapos yung CH 11 kasi ayaw kong mapuyat. Sobrang confident talaga ako.

But it just had to turn out bad. We had to skip CH 11 and move on to CH 12! The heck was that! Hindi ko inaral yun kasi nga hanggang CH 11 lang daw. Oh diba so I panicked at nagsimula akong magbasa. Pero sakto I saw words read in a foreign language! Yun pa yung wala sa glossary ko kasi nga pirated lang book ko and sakto dun ako tinawag at kahit anong basa ko sa libro hindi ko siya magets! Speechless ako at ayun major pahiya ako and it happened twice and he had to be there sitting behind me!

The Hint Leaks

Jan 25, 2010

 

 

"Okay so ready na akong makinig sa mga subjects ko dahil super MOTIVATED talaga ako".

Actually alam na ng mga kaduty ko ang lihim kong well basta secret from Christmas party pa. Syempre asar to the max ako sa kanila. Grabi major victim ako. Then nung malapit na ang 2nd subject, sabi sakin ni Jerry "Sasabihin ko na mamaya". Ako naman si 'engerz' sabi ko "Talaga?! GO!" yun pala iba pinag-uusapan niya.

So ayan dumating na ang 2nd subject at parang wala  lang. Ordinary day as usual. Then syempre since masipag ako todo kinig ako kay Sir. Then hindi ko na matiis kailangan ko nang jumingle so lumabas ako. Then pagbalik ko parang may kakaiba. Feel ko may nangyari nung wala ako. So nakinig ulit ako nang bigla niya ako tinawag. Tumingin ako syempre at nagtaka ako. Tawag daw ako ni Jerry eh katabi niya lang si Jerry heler. So nagets ko na. Naalala niyang sabihin! Sheeet! At ang sabi pa ni ganito, "Text text naman tayo mamaya, share your toots". Di ko mapigilan tawa ko hahaha!

Jan 26, 2010

Eto yun eh. Ang aga-aga. Nakaupo siya sa harap ko then tumingin siya sa likod tapos tumingin siya sakin. Tinawag niya ako para lang maghello. Oha musta naman lakas mangasar haha. Tapos bago magJuris kilig naman ako. Nakiinom siya sa tumbler ko ahohoho. Syempre oo agad ako haha. Tapos syempre nakiinom din si Sam (always) at si Jerry (lumulusot pag wala ako) so syempreeee nawala rin mark niya hahahaha!

Kaya pala pag pinupuno ko yun nagugulat na lang ako nababawasan yung tubig haha!

 

Operational Conference Pt 2

JAN 23, 2010

"Natapos na namin ang shooting sa Circle at ngayon we're back in the OR".

Since wala nanamang patients, Jerry and I turned on our laptops and started doing our project kaso habang ginagawa namin unti-unti na akong tinatamad dahil nag-open up si Jerry bigla! *clap clap* So syempre nalaman ko na lahat and nagbigay rin kami ng advice and everything. :) Swerte din namin dahil....Tenenenentenen!!! Binigyan kami ni Mam ng 4 cases! Thank you MAM N! Kumpleto na kami! *clap clap*

Pero hindi pa pala tapos yung bonding namin. Tumambay pa kami sa Mcdo dahil... nanlibre si Jerry! *clap clap* At nagkwentuhan kami. Biro mo pinauwi kami ng mga 7 pagtingin namin 9 na pala! Maaga palang uuwi eh hahaha!

Syempre di ko na sasabihin ang pinagkwentuhan namin. basta ako sabi ko I realized something at napatunayan kong totoo pala yung nararamdaman ko nung time na yun.

It's CONFIDENTIAL :P

Operational Conference Pt 1

JAN 21, 2010

 

 

"I admit nagseselos ako at nagtatampo at some of my friends pero I realized mali pala iniisip ko."

At first naiinis ako kasi may duty kami just for completion tapos there were only 3 of us. I was also stressed because I was having trouble with our COPAR project. I was expecting that we wouldn't have enough time and hindi ko alam gagawin ko. Yung first day ng duty namin yun ang malunkot kasi puro 3rd year tapos 3 lang kami and Jerry had to leave for a while kasi may appointment daw siya sa doctor (only to find out na nagdriving lessons pala siya!). So kami ni Alyssa yung naiwan. Nung time na yun nagtatampo ako kay Jerry kasi nafeel ko hindi kami ganun kaclose. Nag-open siya kina Hannah and Vince tapos sakin ayaw niyang sabihin. So iniinterrogate ko siya but he doesn't want to answer pero nung si Alyssa na yung nagtatanong aba sinasagot niya kaya nanahimik na lang ako. Ang lungkot ko talaga nung day na yun kasi feeling ko malas week ko yun.

Pero biglang lumiwanag lahat. Sabi ni Mam wag na raw kami pumasok ng 2nd day para hindi kami mahirapan sa project namin. 1st light sa araw ko yun. Then bumalik si Jerry at pinauwi na kami ni Mam. Yun ang 3rd light. Yung 2nd light pala yung nag-pictorial kami ni Aly sa OR at ang ganda-ganda!

 

Then yung 4th light nag-open up kaming 3 pero tungkol sakin at ang bagong chikka ko lang. Yung the best talaga, ang 5th light! We were able to ride Jerry's car! Yahoo!!!

Mistaken Thought

"I thought I was right but I never saw it coming."

The last time I checked, I was too drunk that I thought I have started to like him. So I just shrugged and shove it off. I even thought I liked this other guy I've met. But then I realized the longer I was breathing, the more I got to know how I was feeling.

It wasn't until we went back to school. I was back to my ordinary day and almost a month has passed since I saw my classmates since we celebrated Christmas and New Year in the province. I was excited to see them and bored at the same time. I hated the daily routines. They make me get so tired of life. Then I never noticed anything new when suddenly...

I saw him again. Of course I'll be seeing him, he's my blockmate! At first I didn't know what to say. Not that we were close and it was an obligation to speak to him. But he was talking to me and as usual making jokes. I didn't know what went wrong but I certainly was uneasy. It was like I was thinking up of phrases just for the conversation to keep going. I felt really different.

So my weekend continues until on the second week, I was having strange feelings. It's like I've never felt before. I was more uncomfortable. I was conscious, very uneasy and somehow I can't stop myself from looking at the mirror. The day continues until it was the last subject. Then somehow I couldn't look behind me since he was sitting there. I couldn't even look at him but thank God I could still answer and speak up without biting my tongue whenever he strikes a conversation with me.

Somehow I act like a freaking paranoid that I can't stop myself from smiling whenever he's there and that I act scared when he notices something. But at least I can say he still has no clue since he isn't avoiding me. Or does he know something but is just ignoring it and acts like he doesn't know a thing?

Bully For All Group: GROUP H3!

These past few years I've been really bored with my life. I didn't know who I was. I didn't know myself and because of that, I didn't know how to approach others. I was a pretender and a great one at that. The Lord made me realize that being a pretender returns pretentious feelings from others as well.

But that was before. Now, I have true friends who tell me if I look ugly or if I'm having a bad hair day or if I have a bad breath or if I smell funny. People who I won't call friends, but a family instead.

This will be my way of making it up to them for I was not able to write a decent letter when our C.I. asked us to.

I'll start alphabetically.

CARLO RAMIREZ
He's the group's big brother. Nakasama ko na siya nung 1st year pa ako. Naging magkaklase ulit kami nung 3rd year. Kung tutuusin, di talaga kami close ni Kuya pero nung naging magkagroup kami mejo naging close namin siya. Sobrang responsible niya at maraming alam lalo na pag nawawala kami. Minsan nakakalunkot nga lang kasi hindi namin siya laging kasama sa mga lakwatsa and bondings namin at laging hindi nakukumpleto ang group picture namin. Pero habang tumatagal nagiging kwela na rin si Kuya. Minsan nangaasar na rin siya. Siya pa nga ang nagbibigay ng ideas pag wala kaming maisip. Sobrang reliable siya at masaya kaming naging H3 siya! Yey!


ELAINE RAMOS
Ito ang pinakabakla sa lahat. Hindi mo alam kung 2 tao to eh. Ang payat payat na nga akala mo may alligator pa sa tiyan. Paano ba naman kasi, 10 beses kumain sa isang araw pero sexy pa rin! Itong baklang to ang kasama ko sa chismis at kagutuman. Basta pag nagkikita kami ngumunguya na kami. Pagkain is our favorite chismax. Siya na rin ang one and only loader ko. 2nd bank ko na rin siya dahil minsan may utang ako diyan. As in big time utang! Haha. Ito ang taong kahit hindi ko nakasama madalas, kapag magkasama na kami parang magbestfriends na kami. Kasi nagkakasundo kami lalo na sa pagkain at petix mode! Haha kaya kung nalulunkot ka at may nanlait sayo, puntahan mo lang ang baklang toh, bukas wala ng dila ang nanlait sayo hahaha.




TIMMY RAMOS
Ito ang, like they say, bodyguard ng grupo haha Peace Timmeh. Tahimik pero pag kasama kami grabi din kung humalakhak. Napakagenerous pa niya. Lahat kami may natatanggap sa kanya. The best din siya kasi everytime na may practice or project kami, love na love namin ang bahay niya. Kami naman ni bakla, love na love ang food sa kanila haha. Kakaiba kasi, parang restaurant lang hehe. Hindi siya ganun ka open sakin kasi diko sila masyadong nakakasama. Pero these days, mejo nakakakwentuhan ko na rin siya. Haha marami pa akong hindi alam kay Timmeh pero masasabi kong napakabait niyang tao na may konting kulo at pagkatopak haha.




TERET RAMOS
Grabi ang babaeng ito. Mukang inosente na mabait na walang ginawang kasalanan. Pero akalain niyo, siya ang pinakamalakas manlait sa grupo namin. Mga simpleng banat niya nakakalipad na. Totoong tao rin siya. Pag ayaw niya ayaw niya talaga. Mahirap pilitin to. Grabi rin kiligin to at rumampa. Conservative pero minsan naglalabas ng kutis haha. Masayang kasama lalo na pag sa mga malalapit na tao, lumalabas tunay na ugali nito. Akalain mo bang nagwala nung practice ng sayaw namin? Sosyal dinaig pa kami.




ALYSSA RANADA
Graaaaaabeeeee. Walking anatomy book to. Hindi lang yun, siya na ang nakilala kong pinakarelaxed na tao. Siya yung type na nagsseizure na pala eh akala mo nagduduyan lang. Nakakatuwa siya kasi delayed na delayed siya at tulala na parang hindi ka niya narinig at mamaya titingin sayo at magsasabi "ha?" Oh diba ang sarap kalbuhin lalo na pag ang haba ng sinabi mo haha. Pero matalino tong lokang toh. Laging late pero dun namin siya nakilala. Never namin nakitang magpanic toh. Pero basta ang lahat sa kanya slow motion. Sa pagtawa, sa pagsalita at pati na rin sa pagmuya ng gum haha.



ROSE "JABS" RAQUID
Ito na ang pinakaenergetic na taong nakita ko. Kakakita niyo pa lang may kuwento na yan mula tunkol sa mga kaklase hanggang kapitbahay niya. Minsan nakakatawa siya lalo na pag natetense. Madalas najejebs to haha. Grabe rin to sa jabar hahaha. Jabs na nga tawag namin o kaya Jamar. Siya ang 1st bank ko. Sa kanya kasi ako nangungutang at madalas linilibre niya ako. Fan to ng Starbucks eh. Spoiled brat na nga ako sa kanya haha. May times na mejo masyadong madaldal si Rose minsan di ko lam kung naririnig ko pa sinasabi niya haha pero nung tumagal natanggap ko yung side niyang yun. Bestfriend ko rin to. Siya lagi kasama ko lalo na sa adventures haha. Blessed ako dahil nakilala ko siya :)


HANNAH REANDELAR
Isa pa toh. Ang seatmate ko na madaling magopen kasi open-minded siya at marunong umintindi. Lahat nasasabi ko sa kanya kahit yung mga deepest darkest secrets ko. Minsan puro tawanan na kami nito to the point na nabusog na kami sa hangin. Very competitive ang babaeng to and she knows where she stands. There are times na nagsasacrifice siya pag kaya niya. Mahusay din ang babaeng to. Siya na ang may pinakamakapal na muka sa grupo namin. Hindi siya nahihiyang sabihin ang gusto niya lalo na yung mga for her selfish reasons haha the best talaga yun. Bulgaran na nga pagdating sa babaeng to. Kaso kung makaharap naman si DOC G hay nako, nagiging MENTAL PATIENT na. Akala mo inaatake na. Nahulog yung utak eh haha. Isa rin ito sa mga naging kaclose ko.


JEPAU RECILE
This guy is the real deal of abnormality, but in a good way. You see, he's the type of person that you can see tapping something continuously, banging the door like a malfunctioning robot and doing things in a rash way. Yung tipong magsasara lang ng pinto akala mo galit o kaya magsusuot lang ng gloves akala mo mapupunit na. Pero hanga ako sa kanya when it comes to technological designs. Sobrang galing nito at mas magaling pa sakin. Very detailed ang pagkakagawa niya at tipong inayos at ginandahan niya talaga. Kaya pagdating sa technical stuffs, he's the man. Kaso, malas lang talaga ang aura ng taong to. Tuwing may duty kami, we end up going home without handling a patient o minsan isa lang. Tapos uuwi na nga lang kami galing SM North linigaw pa ako hahaha. At first, mejo may annoying side siya but I have come to accept that at nakakatawa na imbis na nakakainis. Very thoughtful siya kahit hindi niya masyadong pinapakita. Pili lang talaga ang taong pinagkakatiwalaan niya.




VINCENT REGALA
Grabi ito na ata ang isa sa mga masisipag na taong nakilala ko. Laging nawawala to eh. Minsan nag sosoul search yan. Meaning magisa at nawawala bigla sa paningin namin. Very business-minded ang taong to. Siya na rin ang leader or ang nag-iisang bully sa grupo. Nagkataon lang na malakas siyang manginfluence kaya lahat naging bully na. Malakas din mangasar to pero pangalawa lang. Minsan kasi sobrang korni din nito pinipilit na lang namin tumawa hahaha joke lang Vince. Pero pag nastress ka, magaling magpagaan ng feeling si Vince. Akala mo kasi wala siyang problema eh. Pero kung tutuusin mas mabigat pa problema niya hahaha. Totoong tao to at kung ano pinapakita niya, tunay na ugali na niya yun.

May times na nagkakagulo yung mga tao sa grupo, hindi nagkakasundo at minsan nagtatampuhan. Tulad kina Hannah and Jerry, Ako at Hannah, or yung iba pa tahimik lang haha. Pero mas maganda yun kasi kahit ganun kami, nailalabas namin yung tunay na kalooban namin sa group. Kaya namin sabihin kung badtrip kami, kung nainis kami o ano pa. Kasi comfortable ako sa kanila dahil kaya kong ipakita kung ano ako at di ko kelangang magpanggap dahil alam ko na kahit ano pa man ako, tanggap din nila ako. MAHAL NA MAHAL KO ANG H3 AT SOBRANG GRATEFUL AKO DAHIL KAYO ANG MGA NAKASAMA KO AND IT MADE ME REALIZE THAT COLLEGE IS A WORTHWHILE PLACE.

 

   

 

What I'd Like To Feel

When she stares at your mouth
[ smile...then kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hits you
[ hug her tight ]

When she starts cursing at you
[ say i love you ]

When she's quiet
[ hold her hand and ask what's wrong ]

When she ignores you
[ act cute so she'll notice you ]

When she pulls away
[ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst
[ tell her you love her and she still looks amazing ]

When you see her start crying
[hold her...ask her what's wrong]

When you see her walking
[ approach her..give a kiss on the cheek. ]

When she's scared
[assure her you're not goin to leave her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder
[ tilt your head too..and hold her hand ]

When she steals your favorite hat
[ let her keep it]

When she teases you
[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]

When she says that she likes you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands
[ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]

When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]

When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When she says its over
[ she still wants you to be hers ]

When she reposts this bulletin
[ she wants you to read it ]


- Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk to her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you:

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

- Tease her and let her tease you back.

- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

- Let her wear your clothes.

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

- Let her know she's important.

- Kiss her in the pouring rain.

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?"